Tuesday, December 06, 2005

Yeah Yeah I cried...but its ok I guess!

I didn’t plan it this way...but what to do??

Couldn’t hold back the tears (well certain circumstantial botch-up didn’t help) as I wished my sis all the best for the new life that awaits her...didn’t feel like coming back home afterwards...all day my mind kept drifting to distant memories...the closeness we shared...then the distance that came between us for a couple of years (I feel so stupid now...2 years wasted needlessly)...finally overcoming it again...the chit chat at 4 in the morning on the balcony...the fights - some silly ones like the ones over TV...others more serious...all the rakhis...this year was the first one I missed(what am I running after?)...this post can go on forever...

I know I ll get over it...but home will never be the same again...:(

Almost 4 yrs since I last cried...I guess I ll just have to start working on my record again :)

A nice anecdote to lighten up the post...after the end of all the melodrama...our driver - a 6 ft tall Haryanvi jat, never shy to shove anyone getting in his way - is found squirming, wiping his eyes with a tissue paper...now who can explain how our minds work??? Please raise your hands!


I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye


Have also figured out why people break down on such occasions...its the sheer mental and physical effort spent...doesn't take much to get tipped over the edge after that....Hmmm!

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

It's ok RB :) it's good to cry at times too..makes u feel lighter..

and of course the record finally broke..lol..so i was right :)will b a tough one to match upto!

Vini said...

I sure wish they wouldnt play that 'babul' tune at the end of every wedding. Its awful. I cry always.

Devilish Angel said...

"I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned" Good words...

sinusoidally said...

That was a very touching post Sid. Nowhere in this world can we find emotions so rich as we find in India. I hope you have forgiven yourself for all the little fights:-) I guess that is an inevitable part of a sibling relationship. What fun it would be if there weren't any? But I guess it seemed like you have learnt to cherish the relationship that you have with your sister and maybe appreciate it even more. After all what else is really there is in this world except for the love of and for the family...

Congratulations on the sister's wedding!

NoviceProgrammer said...

@ Neha : Hopefully i ll better that..:)

@ susubala : its from a song..."affirmation"

@ vini : No such tune was played...lol

@ Sinusoidally : Hey thanx...will be congratulating you shortly ;)

Anonymous said...

Crying really does more good than harm really...and all the better when theres a friendly shoulder to do the same...
Am back in town dearie....

M (tread softly upon) said...

Came here through Sine's blog. Read this post and it made me want to cry. For family and loved ones back home. made me relive that moment when I left my home to go to my "sasural".
And who says crying is bad or sissy.....I think it is the best healer.

Wanderlust said...

hi,this is my first time on your site and i loved the your last post.perhaps coz i today am missing my younger brother a lot...and so intend to post a write up on him...sis' too miss their dear brothers and its true you never realise the value of someone till its far away...the poem is tooooo touching and beautifully reflects your mood...don't worry friend,boy's do cry too and there is nothing bad in it...take care :-)

NoviceProgrammer said...

@ Anita : Welcome back!

@ M : Thanks for dropping by :)

@ Ashmi : Thanks pal...nice name!

Shehzaad Shams said...

Prasher Baby...I can feel how you feel, wish I was there to give you another crying shoulder...mine.

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